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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Monday, March 10, 2008
Aw! =)
... ang bago kong expression. Maraming ibig sabihin, depende sa sitwasyon, depende sa haba o tulin ng pagkakabigkas, depende kung paano ipinahayag ng mukha ko. Aw! (for lack of a better word).
Aw! kapag nasasaktan. Parang ouch na pinutol sa unang pantig. Kasi hindi naman talaga masakit. Kunwari lang. Maarte lang, kasi ma -arte ako. Karaniwan.
Pero ito, masakit: kahapon, tumawag ang mama, ang papa, si ian (na binata na, lumilipas na ang pag-pipiyok ng boses) at si gay (na ma-haaal na mahal kong sis). Sabi nila, apektado na sila ng recession sa US. Sabi ko, kami din po dito sa Pinas. Ang mahal ng mangga (nakalimutan na nga ni Gay kung ano yung carabao mango kasi matagal ko nang hindi nababanggit. Bihira din daw sila makakita nun sa US. Ibang variety lang daw ang meron.) Aw!
Aw! kapag nabibigla. Kasi hindi ko mapigilan ang pagkabigla ko. Depende sa sitwasyon. Kasi tuloy-tuloy lang ang dila ko pag nagugulat. Kailangan kong masabi agad ang reaksyon ko nang hindi nai-edit o pinag-iisipan man lang. Minsan, nakakasakit ng tao. Minsan, nakakatawa lang. Minsan, nagmumukha akong tanga.
Kanina, narinig ko sa balita, may mga bagong "kasalanan" na raw ayon sa Vatican. Kabilang dito ang pagdodroga at pagkakalat (sa paligid). Environmentalist na rin pala ang Vatican pero minsan, hindi herbal. Aw!
Aw! para lang makapag-hinga kunwari ng reaksyon kung wala naman talagang masabi. Para kunwari, may opinyon. O, kung ayaw ko nang pag-usapan. O, pambawi, para hindi corny. O, kapag may natamaan.
“She (PGMA) may be a bitch, but she’s the luckiest bitch around” – Gov. Salceda
“Son of a bitch” – sabi ni Sarah nung makita si Mikey Arroyo sa TV (following Salceda’s statement)
“Kapag nagbato siya ng alahas, pupulutin ko!” – awayang Anabelle Rama at Lolit Solis
“Detoxify daily” – sabi ni Lucy Torres
Aw! kapag nakaka-appreciate ng magandang bagay, tao, gawi, o musika, literatura at art na rin. Parang, “grabe pa-re, astig!” Magandang malandi. Parang “ma-ri-mar, aw!” Dahil maganda ang mundo (sa lahat ng kamunduhan nito), masarap mabuhay. Dahil baliw ako. Dahil "tao" ako. I'm human, men! Nakakaramdam ng bawat dampi, nakakarinig ng musika o berso, nasisilayan ang marikit. Nakakaunawa ng bawat kuwit, tuldok, at mga pariralang nagpapanggap na pangungusap.
Aw! kapag natataranta. Rakenrol! Kapag madaming naiisip at hindi kasimbilis ng mga daliri ang utak ko. Kapag nagkatambak-tambak ang mga gagawin. Kapag kailangan kong gawin ‘to, pero gustong-gusto kong gawin ‘yun. Kapag hinihila ang oras para umabot. Para hindi malagutan ng hininga. Aw! rin sa kabaliktaran nito, kapag satisfied, kapag nakatapos ng mga dapat gawin. Basta aw! pag extremes, para maging karaniwan.
Aw! dahil "i feel so damn good, i don't know how to express it." Dahil meron akong natural high. Ang sarap langhapin ng malakas na hangin bago ito dumampi sa balat ko at bago nito paliparin ang buhok ko. Aw! dahil malaya na ako, malaya sa lahat ng sagabal at hadlang. Ito ang pinakamagandang regalong natanggap ko (so far). Aw! dahil kasalukuyan na akong naglalakad sa kalsadang puno ng alpombra ng mga tuyong pulang dahon. Hihintayin kita sa dulo, sa dating tagpuan.
Aw! Dahil nahanap ko na ang pagbabago sa sarili ko at nahanap ko 'to dahil lamang sa sarili ko (hindi "dahil sa kanya," hindi "dahil siya lang ang nakapagparamdam sa akin ng ganito"). Napagsasabihan, naaapektuhan, nayayanig, nanginginig, pero hindi natatangay ng agos. Aw! dahil wala na akong galit, poot, at pagkamuhi. Dahil tapos na ang panahon ng pagluluksa, dahil patay na 'yun, dahil hindi na magbabalik. Dahil marunong na akong ngumiti kahit may takot at pangamba.
Aw! dahil yapos-yapos ko ang nag-uumapaw na pag-ibig. Parang ‘yung kantang “i love you more today than yesterday” ng goldfinger. “Every day's a new day in love with you. With each day comes a new way of loving you,” sinisipol ko sa sarili ko. “I’m like a big balloon filled with hot air, ready to explode” sabi ng orange and lemons sa “a beginning of something wonderful.” Parang gusto kong umindak sa ilalim ng nagbabagsakang dahon ng taglagas. Life is beautiful at nangangarap pa rin ng... world peace.
"We're restless hearted, not the chained and bound... We're too young to reason, too grown up to dream," sabi ni Elan Atias.
Bukas, may transport strike ulit...
Sunday, March 09, 2008
i HEART the french
i HEART the french
Jules BonnotLes Brigades du Tigre
(The Brigades of the Tiger)
Yet another reason for me to love the French.
French film makers never fail to nail me to a trance-like state with movies that feed my delicate soul with intriguing story lines blended with innovative but equally incredible imagery. They never cease to explore new concepts in visual execution. As a whole, subtle ideas they suggest elicit intriguing thoughts for humanity. Among my favorites are 'Irreversible', 'Amelie,' and 'L'appartement' (the original version of Hollywood's 'Wicker Park').
French film makers never fail to nail me to a trance-like state with movies that feed my delicate soul with intriguing story lines blended with innovative but equally incredible imagery. They never cease to explore new concepts in visual execution. As a whole, subtle ideas they suggest elicit intriguing thoughts for humanity. Among my favorites are 'Irreversible', 'Amelie,' and 'L'appartement' (the original version of Hollywood's 'Wicker Park').
This time, I was captivated by a scene in 'Les Brigades du Tigre'. Jules Bonnot, a famous 'anarchist' leader who wants to topple the corrupt monarch from power, was cornered by the Tiger Brigades' arrest operation. Alone in his hideout, he fought back and fought hard for his life until he caught a glimpse of his queen lover through his window. He was suddenly weakened at the sight of her. He yielded from countering the attacks and looked for a paper and a pen. Struggling to live for one moment more, with blood spurting from gunshots that penetrated his body, he wrote:
And my renown must be filled with envy
all those who try so hard to get themselves noticed.
I didn't want much,
just to walk with her by the Rhone in the moonlight.
I have always dreamt of such happiness,
snatched from me each time.
I had to survive but
Since your inane and criminal society prevents that, too bad for it.
Too bad for you."
I heart the French.
Monday, March 03, 2008
One Tough Editor:
JERRIE ABELLA for USC Chairperson
Running the Philippine Collegian is one thankless job. Aside from thenerve-wracking, pressure-packed pressworks that writers and artists deal with on a weekly basis, its editors are burdened with almost impossible, inhuman expectations. The least that they have to be worried
about are the rules of grammar (in both languages), which they areassumed to have firm grasp of. Theyare required by the job to have extraordinary acuity and keenness in analyzing social, political and cultural events. Equally as important, of course, editors have to have a fully developed creative imagination, not to mention, impeccable taste.
It is undeniably one of the most demanding jobs on campus, where mere mortals fear to tread.
It does not surprise us, therefore, that one of Collegian’s editors –current editor-in-chief, no less – has decided to tread the path of campus politics. He is on familiar ground, for sure. He is vying for one job where his wit and intelligence, superior leadership skills, creative imagination and, well, impeccable taste, can be put to best use.
We are talking, of course, about Jerrie Abella.
As an astute observer of campus politics for many years, Jerrie has acquired an encyclopedic knowledge of its ins and outs. Trained as a news reporter, he has interviewed and conversed with university administrators and professors, instructors and employees, residents and students – stakeholders all in the business of running a student council.
Anyone familiar with how a usual Collegian presswork grinds out knows how tough one must be to be able to go through the entire process with his or her sanity intact. From planning the issue to going through the rigorous editing to the painstaking laying out of the pages, Jerrie has successfully led one of the best Collegian pool of editors, writers and artists in years. This feat is due in no small measure to Jerrie’s leadership.
Make no mistake, too: Jerrie is also an impassioned activist. His heart has always been in the right place – the Collegian’s advocacies are testament to that. During the last school year, Jerrie was among the editors who assiduously fought administration intervention in the paper’s fiscal affairs while coming up with creative ways to deliver the news to the students. The Collegian’s past term and the current one were also most valiant in exposing and criticizing the utter underhandedless with which the UP administration passed the tuition hike. Jerrie’s term has also kept vigil of updates on the whereabouts of missing UP students Sherlyn Cadapan and Karen Empeño, as well as other disappeared victims of state fascism.
It goes without saying, too, that the Collegian under his term has been most passionate in bringing to the student fore national issues, from demolition of urban poor communities to the national movement to oust the sitting President.
We have to admit, though: Jerrie is biased. But only because he favors seeing social problems from the point-of-view of the majority of poor and dispossessed Filipinos. He is biased for the students, and makes sure that every ink that he pens will reflect its objective interests and aspirations. He is biased for what is true. Yes, as a journalist, he is obliged to be objective and fair, and the pages of the Collegian in many ways reflect that. But more than being an observer, Jerrie is an activist and a student leader. More than being a mere chronicler of events, he is completely engaged in the conflict of our times.
Fortunately for us, he is on our side.
This coming election, we, former Philippine Collegian editors, urge you to vote JERRIE ABELLA, for chairperson of the University Student Council.
Signed:
Karl Frederick Castro, Editor in Chief, 2006-2007
Jayson DP Fajarda, Editor in Chief, 2004-2005
Ellaine Rose A. Beronio, Editor in Chief, 2002-2003
Kenneth Roland A. Guda, Features Editor, 2000-2001
Lisa Cariño Ito, Associate Editor, 2000-2002
Margaret P. Yarcia, Features Editor, 2006-2007
Katrina Angela R. Macapagal, Associate Editor, 2006-2007
Joan ME Salvador, Associate Editor, 2002-2003
Kendrick T. Bautista, Graphics Editor, 2004-2005
Divina Nova Joy D. Dela Cruz, News Editor, 2003-2005
Rouelle T. Umali, Graphics Editor, 2006-2007
Jeeu Christopher A. Gonzales, Culture Editor, 2006-2007
Wendell M. Gumban, News Editor, 2004-2005
Running the Philippine Collegian is one thankless job. Aside from thenerve-wracking, pressure-packed pressworks that writers and artists deal with on a weekly basis, its editors are burdened with almost impossible, inhuman expectations. The least that they have to be worried
about are the rules of grammar (in both languages), which they areassumed to have firm grasp of. Theyare required by the job to have extraordinary acuity and keenness in analyzing social, political and cultural events. Equally as important, of course, editors have to have a fully developed creative imagination, not to mention, impeccable taste.
It is undeniably one of the most demanding jobs on campus, where mere mortals fear to tread.
It does not surprise us, therefore, that one of Collegian’s editors –current editor-in-chief, no less – has decided to tread the path of campus politics. He is on familiar ground, for sure. He is vying for one job where his wit and intelligence, superior leadership skills, creative imagination and, well, impeccable taste, can be put to best use.
We are talking, of course, about Jerrie Abella.
As an astute observer of campus politics for many years, Jerrie has acquired an encyclopedic knowledge of its ins and outs. Trained as a news reporter, he has interviewed and conversed with university administrators and professors, instructors and employees, residents and students – stakeholders all in the business of running a student council.
Anyone familiar with how a usual Collegian presswork grinds out knows how tough one must be to be able to go through the entire process with his or her sanity intact. From planning the issue to going through the rigorous editing to the painstaking laying out of the pages, Jerrie has successfully led one of the best Collegian pool of editors, writers and artists in years. This feat is due in no small measure to Jerrie’s leadership.
Make no mistake, too: Jerrie is also an impassioned activist. His heart has always been in the right place – the Collegian’s advocacies are testament to that. During the last school year, Jerrie was among the editors who assiduously fought administration intervention in the paper’s fiscal affairs while coming up with creative ways to deliver the news to the students. The Collegian’s past term and the current one were also most valiant in exposing and criticizing the utter underhandedless with which the UP administration passed the tuition hike. Jerrie’s term has also kept vigil of updates on the whereabouts of missing UP students Sherlyn Cadapan and Karen Empeño, as well as other disappeared victims of state fascism.
It goes without saying, too, that the Collegian under his term has been most passionate in bringing to the student fore national issues, from demolition of urban poor communities to the national movement to oust the sitting President.
We have to admit, though: Jerrie is biased. But only because he favors seeing social problems from the point-of-view of the majority of poor and dispossessed Filipinos. He is biased for the students, and makes sure that every ink that he pens will reflect its objective interests and aspirations. He is biased for what is true. Yes, as a journalist, he is obliged to be objective and fair, and the pages of the Collegian in many ways reflect that. But more than being an observer, Jerrie is an activist and a student leader. More than being a mere chronicler of events, he is completely engaged in the conflict of our times.
Fortunately for us, he is on our side.
This coming election, we, former Philippine Collegian editors, urge you to vote JERRIE ABELLA, for chairperson of the University Student Council.
Signed:
Karl Frederick Castro, Editor in Chief, 2006-2007
Jayson DP Fajarda, Editor in Chief, 2004-2005
Ellaine Rose A. Beronio, Editor in Chief, 2002-2003
Kenneth Roland A. Guda, Features Editor, 2000-2001
Lisa Cariño Ito, Associate Editor, 2000-2002
Margaret P. Yarcia, Features Editor, 2006-2007
Katrina Angela R. Macapagal, Associate Editor, 2006-2007
Joan ME Salvador, Associate Editor, 2002-2003
Kendrick T. Bautista, Graphics Editor, 2004-2005
Divina Nova Joy D. Dela Cruz, News Editor, 2003-2005
Rouelle T. Umali, Graphics Editor, 2006-2007
Jeeu Christopher A. Gonzales, Culture Editor, 2006-2007
Wendell M. Gumban, News Editor, 2004-2005
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